I Echo Madison...

I feel right now as if I am learning the same lesson Madison is learning...

I suddenly find myself the richest person in my family. Is that not a scary thought?

-My mother called me yesterday on her way to pick up her food stamps from FEMA. She also informed me she has no money left.
And, soon, I- her starving actor son- will be all too happy to begin sending her checks from my savings account to sustain her until my stepfather gets law work again.
-My grandmother is facing the prospect of, even if her house is not damaged, not being able to pay the insurance on her house once it's liveable again because it's most likely going to double or triple. She is almost 70 and trying to decide where to live and how to live out the rest of her life.
-My dad's usually safe financial situation is increasingly less certain. And the business that he worked so hard to start and been so successful with is in doubt. He is now trying to figure out whether to stay in Dallas and open business there or give New Orleans another shot.

These are my family, who are all either middle-aged or senior citizens.
And they have no idea what to do with their lives right now.

It doesn't go away- the worries, the doubts, the guesses. It takes a little pressure off this acting thing- because I'm going to attempt to be an actor until I become one or switch to a different career and still have just as much uncertainty and doubt at some point or another. Might as well grit my teeth and stick with what I love, right?

So, I guess we all just have to buckle down and go for whatever seems the most right.
And pray we haven't fucked up.
And accept it if we do.